winter break.

Today was my last final!! Thank god. Winter break here i come!
I have to move out of my g-ma's asap, so today i went apartment hunting all around philly. I like looking at all the apartments, i just hate talking to the landlord's they are so freakin pushing... I mean i understand they want to just get it rented out, and they want someone who is serious about moving... but I wanna look around and find the perfect place. I don't want to settle for a shit hole. I found this supper cute place right near south street. i was in love with it. BUT OF COURSE SOMEONE got to it before me. :(

1:50AM

So today i had my English final, which was a lame in-class essay. Then right after that i had to literally sprint across town in the rain for my interview, which i was 20 minutes late for. I was all bummed out by the time i got there cause i really didn't think i had any chance in getting the job BUT I DID!! i got the job! I'm sooo happy. I start tomorrow!!
i now work for ..

something told me I was always better

and I was right, I'm glad I didn't waste too much of my time on you, because seeing the person you've become has shown me who you really were all along. Maybe if we had met at a different time things would have been different for both of us but I doubt it; I know you'll think back about me later, but by then everything will have changed for both of us. I almost wish I had never met you, goodbye.

1:17 AM

Alone With Everybody

the flesh covers the bone
and they put a mind
in there and
sometimes a soul,
and the women break
vases against the walls
and the men drink too
much
and nobody finds the
one
but keep
looking
crawling in and out
of beds.
flesh covers
the bone and the
flesh searches
for more than
flesh.

there's no chance
at all:
we are all trapped
by a singular
fate.

nobody ever finds
the one.

the city dumps fill
the junkyards fill
the madhouses fill
the hospitals fill
the graveyards fill

nothing else
fills.

Charles Bukowski

i have finals next week & 14 pages to write for psych. wish me luck.